With Pure Heart

This is the song I played at the Earl Of Camden on Monday, I think it went down better than the covers I did so I might record this over the weekend! I'm still chasing up my video of Monday too...I haven't seen it myself yet...

So...With Pure Heart... The lyrics are quite negative but its good to embrace the mood you are feeling sometimes and let yourself feel certain things, then you can move on and leave it behind...


With Pure Heart

Words are only words
Words are only sounds
Words can feel so powerful
And mean nothing at all

It's foolish to hang on so close
To anything that's out of your control
It's foolish to believe that
Another soul will save your soul

I've had lovers that leave me
I've left other lovers bleeding
Learned too much to love completely
Have I ever loved at all?

It's not the final destination
It's the journey that I'm travelling
It's the steps I'm taking one by one by one

And each step may bring me closer
To some vision of perfection
But it's temporary, everything will change

Then you'll be back finding your own way
Just your own soul in your own skin
Stronger than ever standing on your own

Then you'll be back finding your own road
One direction paved for your soul
You know you can't rely on anything at all

You can't rely on anyone at all , but yourself

Whisky

My parent's bought me my first kitten when I was 12, I called her Whisky.

She died on Friday night...I've been crying at intervals since...and some words and things just came out of me... I think I have a recording to upload too...

Link to MP3: Whisky

Whisky
You were here
16 years
Even now
You're still my little girl

I grew from a child
To a man with you
Our love never changed
Truley unconditional

I'm so sorry
I wasn't there
When you closed your eyes
For the last time

So when I close my eyes tonight
Maybe you can come around for a while
We'll lay on the ground, you can sleep for one last time
And we can say goodbye

Sweet Bilamie

I've been playing around with a guitar part for the last couple of weeks, a part that was inspired by the songs that Beth and I have written together... Today, I put some lyrics to it... In case you don't know, when we play music together, our duo is called Bilamie :-)

"Sweet Bilamie"

I got a little friend who I love
With talents sent high from up above
When her fingers stroke her strings
I feel so much love I have to sing
So please, please, please
Lets make some sweet
Music together

Sweet harmonising beautifully
We'll be bathing in utopian ecstasy
The vibes push us high
That's when our spirits shine bright
So please, please, please
Lets make some sweet
Music together

When another man walks out
When a girl fucks you about
There's another world where love is free
Bilamie, Sweet Bilamie

When the day drags dull and long
When there's a voice screamin' 'your life is wrong!'
There's another world where love is free
Bilamie, Sweet Bilamie

Love Nest

I've had a good few days but today I kinda crumbled when I got home...

Got a little tune out of it though at least...

Download free mp3: http://freedownloads.last.fm/download/384979610/Love%2BNest.mp3

Today i thought
About you all day
As usual
My heart is full
And I miss you
Oh so much

I'm watching the sunset over the marina
We've watched many times together

I'm fighting off the urge to say i love you
Yes, I still refrain
I hope you're ok

I'm fighting off the urge to say i love you
Yes, I still refrain
But I think I'm gonna be ok

Warm (lyrics)

Was completely head over heels and infatuated when I wrote this - I was drunk on love, autumn, alcohol and a certain brand of cereal...

Free MP3: Web Sheldon - Warm

Hey mister,
I didn't used to know your name
Or the kinda game you were playing

You were just some real cute guy
In a club in a city
Miles away

Hey mister,
So what would you say if I were to say
Would you go on a date with me?

Wanted to get to know you better
You wrote me a letter
I keep it in my diary

Can you feel the chill
It's a frosty dawn
I can feel the chill
I'd like to keep you warm

I'd like to put my arms around you
Kiss you when I greet you
Hold hands when we want to
Be "Me and you"

Kiss you whilst you're calling
Taste you in the morning
Hold you when I'm phoning in sick for you
To be "Me and you"

Hey mister,
So was that your arm or my leg
And what did the (Smashing) Pumpkins say to you?

As soon as they left
You turned over to me
And we kissed and I sank into you

Everybody says I'm so lucky
And isn't it exciting
And yes it is

And I swear I'm growing up as we speak
For once
I'm no emotional freak


Can you feel the chill
It's a frosty dawn
I can feel the chill
I'd like to keep you warm

I'd like to put my arms around you
Kiss you when I greet you
Hold hands when we want to
Be "Me and you"

Kiss you whilst you're calling
Taste you in the morning
Hold you when I'm phoning in sick for you
To be "Me and you"

Whatever happens anytime, anywhere
Where we're all going or what that curl means in your hair
Wouldn't it be so much easier if we could read minds
I think I'd trade in my favourite cords for that sometime
Can you feel it?
Can you feel it?
Can you feel it?
Can you feel it?


I'd like to put my arms around you
Kiss you when I greet you
Hold hands when we want to
Be "Me and you"

Kiss you whilst you're calling
Taste you in the morning
Hold you when I'm phoning in sick for you
To be "Me and you"

Can you feel the chill?
I'd like to keep you warm

Slaying Dragons (lyrics)

I like this song cos it's kinda weird... And it paints a good picture of how crap my life was at the time haha


Today I don't feel like Slaying Dragons
Success is too much like hard work
But I'm still subjecting myself to this guilt

I'm just sitting here, wondering
Go with the natural flow
It's what I need and if it's not coming naturally, then why...

Push it
Push it
Push it
Push it
Push it
Push it


It's weird though
I never seem to feel alive or awake
It's more a series of interlocking events

I just seem to be living my life
For losing my life through alcohol
That's all that I look forward to and that can't be no way of...

Life
Life
Life
Life
Life
Life

11:11, 11:12,
11:13, 22:22
Please explain the significance?

People at work say I never smile anymore
Just bore into the screen
What's happened to me? I feel so...

Dead
Dead
Dead
Dead
Dead
Dead

Good Friends (lyrics)

This is kinda sad... I think it's one of my favourite break up songs that I've written...

Free MP3: Web Sheldon - Good Friends (live 14.12.2009)

I never wrote a love song for you
I was too occupied being in love with you
And before the rainy days were amazing days
Those days are so special to relate to

It started from good friends and fun
The best way it could be
Ignored our heads, listened to our hearts
Lived for the day right from the start
And your rings means I'll love you forever and a day

And if you can smile one second longer
You're that little bit stronger
And you can be proud of yourself
I'm sure we're still allowed to help
And if you can walk one metre further
You're that little bit closer
To the place you want to be
So good luck darling
Even if that place isn't with me

I'll never get to hold you all through the night again
And keep you smiling and warm till the dawn again
And before amazing days, were crazy days
It was intense and passionate and soulful and you were just my friend

Your arms filled a space in my hearts lonely days
And your thoughts and your love were all so beautiful
Ignored our heads, listened to our hearts
Lived for the day right from the start
And your ring means I'll love you forever and a day

And if you can smile one second longer
You're that little bit stronger
And you can be proud of yourself
I'm sure we're still allowed to help
And if you can walk one metre further
You're that little bit closer
To the place you want to be
So good luck darling
Even if that place isn't with me

You made love and sex and dreams and thoughts fit all into one place
You gave hearts and smiles and happiness in our glory days
You hugged insecurities and tears far away
We walked on water from Sennen to St. Ives and tempted fate

And if you can smile one second longer
You're that little bit stronger
And you can be proud of yourself
I'm sure we're still allowed to help
And if you can walk one metre further
You're that little bit closer
To the place you want to be
So good luck darling
Even if that place isn't with me

Yes, good luck darling
And here's a toast to remaining good friends

Dressed To Undress (Lyrics)

This was a track that I played with Mothership back in 2005...

Web Sheldon - Dressed To Undress (live 14.12.2010)

New secret
Another cigarette
Another snort of that
Leave the curtains back boy

Another brain
An entertaining game
It's a degrading shame
Oh what a lame excuse, ha!

What's this, hey
A boy in disarray
Enjoying this display
Head starting to sway

In this gracious room
A solacious mood
You tenacious fool
You're starting to drool

Hey isn't it bright in here
We're in the spotlight here
Can you feel this here?
Come on, Cavalier!

Listen to me
This is a good house,
We'll have none of that
None of that
None of that in here

Get the best
Dressed To Undress
Oh, be my guest
There's no second best, ha!

I suggest you
Confess all to
Come so close to
This infectious point of view

Hey isn't it bright in here
We're in the spotlight here
Can you feel this here?
Come on, Cavalier!

Listen to me
This is a good house,
We'll have none of that
None of that
None of that in here

Hey isn't it bright in here
We're in the spotlight here
Can you feel this here?
Come on, Cavalier!

Hey boy are you high now?
Are you excited now?
Are you ready now?
Come on, I'll take you now!

Listen to me
This is a good house,
We'll have none of that
None of that
None of that in here

After San (lyrics)

2 weeks ago
You called me in the morning
I was jet lagged from New York
And hungover
You said you'd been sad lately
Stumbled over your words
And then you said
"It's not gonna work"

And you started crying, crying
And I started trying
To work out exactly what these words meant
And you started crying, crying
And I saw there listening
To my boyfried telling me I'm no more than a friend
Not anymore

So I laid down in our bed of tears
Started to think back over this year
I listened to "The Treehouse Song"
We were gonna move in before too long
You only asked me 2 months ago
Before things changed like I'd never know

And you started crying, crying
And I started trying
To work out exactly what these words meant
And you started crying, crying
And I saw there listening
To my boyfried telling me I'm no more than a friend
Not anymore

Is this because I've been smoking
Have I not called you enough
Maybe I shouldn't have gone to New York

Is this because of my mood swings?
Do my texts take too long?
You couldn't even tell me what was wrong, no
You couldn't even tell me what was wrong, no

You couldn't even tell me what I'd done wrong

Takin' The High (Lyrics)

Recorded this in 2005...

Web Sheldon - Takin' The High

So you're here but you're not here
So it happened but it didn't
Angel on the shoulder
Quietely suggesting that you shouldn't
Oh, it's falling apart

So you're here but you're not here
So it happened but it didn't
Angel on the shoulder
Screamin' that you shouldn't

Oh, oh, oh
It's falling apart, apart, apart, apart
Oh, oh, oh
Why don't you get a room?

And now you're singing out of tune
Whenever you get to sing
Feelings are less than before
They all know it's leading nowhere
It's got nowhere to go
But the devil still dreams for more

Oh, oh, oh
It's falling apart, apart, apart, apart
Oh, oh, oh
Why don't you get a room?

And now you're looking miserbale
Kinda reverse intent
Change hand in hand with confusion (confusion)
He's the devil and the angel
He's the distant boyfriend
Caught up in love/lust illusion (illusion)

Oh, oh, oh
They're takin' the high high high high life
Oh, oh, oh
He's not gonna be a wife


And now you're singing out of tune
Whenever you get to sing
Feelings are less than before
They all know it's leading nowhere
It's got nowhere to go
But the devil still dreams for more

And now you're looking miserbale
Kinda reverse intent
Change hand in hand with confusion
He's the devil and the angel
He's the distant boyfriend
Caught up in love/lust illusion

Oh, oh, oh
It's falling apart, apart, apart, apart
Oh, oh, oh
Why don't you get a room?

Oh, oh, oh
They're takin' the high high high high life
Oh, oh, oh
He's not gonna be a wife

So you think that it's gone missing
Lost through all the kissing
Found abandoned on the covers
Of a few careless lovers
Careless lovers
Dirty lovers

Bite (Lyrics)

Am playing catch up at the moment, uploading lyrics to songs I've recorded in the past...

Free MP3: Web Sheldon - Bite

What are we to do if we can't make the time
If it's not worth the escape from the grind
What are we to do, haven't got the time of day
With what we do now, we won't make the grade

Feel your feet on the ground now
Survey this town now
Lose yourself or get found now
Just don't be so bored

Heaven forbid take control
Out of the routune hole
On the right or wrong road
Oh just cut the cords!

Just moving and moving
Go anywhere, really anywhere
Just biting and biting and biting

Bite, bite, bite, bite
Shock, horror, trauma,
Bite, bite, bite, bite
Shock, horror, trauma,
Bite, bite, bite, bite
Bite, Bite.

What am I to do
Enough triviality!
It's only the debut
My speciality
What am I to do
Can't hack authority
It could be nice to be
In the majority

Tick tick goes time now
When it didn't used to even exist
How did kids suddenly grow
While I tried nothing new

It's time for adventure
None-indulgence with pleasure
Not fat/sugar/leisure
On continuous loop

Just moving and moving
Go anywhere, really anywhere
Just biting and biting and biting

Bite, bite, bite, bite
Shock, horror, trauma,
Bite, bite, bite, bite
Shock, horror, trauma,
Bite, bite, bite, bite
Bite, Bite.

5 days a week
I wake a flea in my ear
Think I'll sack off
This managerial career
So shock, horror, trauma
Cos my make-up's all smeared
Well I make the decisions
And I decide not to be here

I don't want to win it
I'm not going to lose it
I don't want to just survive
In my safe little world

I scowl through the people
Give all strangers evils
But it's not how I feel
So it's not my world

Just moving and moving
Go anywhere, really anywhere
Just biting and biting and biting

Bite, bite, bite, bite
Shock, horror, trauma,
Bite, bite, bite, bite
Shock, horror, trauma,
Bite, bite, bite, bite
Bite, Bite.

In History (Lyrics)

Download MP3: Web Sheldon - In History

If you see me out there
And my flirt is searching again
Well you can be rest assured
I don't feel the same for them

Well now I can't even say "Hello"
Could it be that I'm just that shallow
All my heart now feels is hollow
There's no shiny path to follow

Well my heart if wasted
It's broken, healing, but shy
And if they're interested
I just let them pass me by

When I found out where you loyalties lied
Well, didn't that just cut me down to size
Hell is freezing over but I'll be out by then
And maybe we can bring this shit to an end

And now you're
Running so fast you can't see what you left behind you
Hoping and showing those feelings don't find you
Only one question left to ask is
Why'd you do it to her

If you had my love we could've been flawlwess
Living in a fantasy world with Taurus
But you melted away before our history
In History

If I'm tempremental or angry
It's usually over you
Well I'm just hoping we can be
More loving, less cruel

It must be 99.9 in here
I'm drowning in Suzanne Vega's tears
Cos I know exactly what she means and
If I was In Liverpool I'd shake her hand

And now you're
Running so fast you can't see what you left behind you
Hoping and showing those feelings don't find you
Only one question left to ask is
Why'd you do it to her

If you had my love we could've been flawlwess
Living in a fantasy world with Taurus
But you melted away before our history
In History

So if you see me out there
And my flirt is searching again
Well you can be rest assured
I don't feel the same for them

I Woke Up Heavy (Lyrics and Video link)

Link to YouTube Video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B7tOsPS1qgY

I watched the sunset today
Over the urban sea of life of grey
But it stands pretty
In it's own way

I wanted to be on my favourite cliff top
To be out of my suit
And out of my socks
But I was 400 miles away

It shone from the sky
It reflected on the road
It was the topic of conversation
For every speaking soul

But I Woke Up Heavy...
I Woke Up Heavy...

Have you ever tried to clench your fists
After just waking up? You can't do it
Just as you're rising
You're at one with the world

A peaceful serenity you can't reproduce
At any other time, for any other use
It serves a purpose
So keep it in mind

I got home
But I didn't have my tea
And now I'm in my room
Looking forward to my dreams

I Woke Up Heavy...
I Woke Up Heavy...
I Woke Up Heavy...
I Woke Up Heavy...

Spirit Like You (Lyrics)

Download MP3: Web Sheldon - Spirit Like You

They say you'll lose
Because you sinned
But sins are just
Strings 'round your mind
They can all be undone

There's many times
You sat and sighed
And couldn't see
How a step could be taken
If there's nowhere to go

There's many doubts
Need letting out
It's amazing how free you feel
Once you deal yourself
A good hand

You watch them trace
Lines on your face
But you miss it when
They're wishing for a
Spirit of life just like you

Mistakes will happen to you
You're only human so
Don't cut yourself up, don't get down
Regrets are only regrets
If you don't learn from them
You know you can turn it around

Theories From Von Krahl (Lyrics)

This is actually about the same guy as Good Friends is about and some of the lyrics were written back in 2001.

Download MP3: Web Sheldon - Theories from Von Krahl

Peeash:
Oh, so it's true
You've kissed somebody else now, haven't you!
And don't I feel a fool, pushed you away
Talked me down to your friends
What do they say?
But then again, I promised I wouldn't dig
But I'm having a hard time
Me and my stiff upper lip
Are going away for some time

WS:
So what if maybe Peeash is the one?
Cos you deserve now, no more hurt now
Bad times should be gone
His running around and kissing girls you could never understand
And that one night apart when he couldn't keep it in his pants

Peeash:
I enjoy being there for you
That I'm a someone that you can talk to
That we're still considered friends
After all we've been through, I'm glad I have you
But he's just a concept to me
He's only a story, it isn't real
If I saw him, how would I feel?
You and your new 'see how it goes' deal

WS:
Everybody makes mistakes, hoping this isn't yours
Cos you deserve now, no more blame now
You were not the cause
He always acted like he'd got something to hide
He always pushed you as far as he could
Till you stepped to one side

Are you learning from the past
Or letting it ruin your last chance?
Are you applying Theories from Von Krahl
Or simply learning how to fall?

Hope you appreciate
I left you to your man
Because I understand
And all I ever really wanted

Was your happiness
I had the things he lacked
But I couldn't give you that
That's why I left you

On the way home I collapsed
You'd taken all my strength
But added another complex
And add another to the

'It wasn't meant to be' list
But you were more to me
So that's my good deed
And I don't care about the karma

Painkiller (Lyrics)

Painkiller

I don't know how
I daren't think how
But something in between us
Seems wrong about now

I watch them play
Watch them celebrate
I know that you should be here
But you passed on that date

You haven't said "Hi"
You didn't say "Goodnight"
I think there's part of me missing
In another lonlely night

Oh look, "Kiss! Kiss!"
Don't remind me of this!
I took you off my desktop
To painkill this illness

(note - this is like a 'Part II" version of 9th May 1998)

9th May 1998 (Lyrics)

This is kind of a silly song... it was written on a very obvious date...

Download MP3: Web Sheldon - 9th May 1998

9th May 1998

9th of May 1998
And your cruel words have reached my ears again
So I'll choose my murder weapon
And I'll slowly count to 10

I love you (not), this room's so hot
I can't decide, the course if action I will take
So I'll get right in my kitchen
And bake you a poisonous raspberry cake

This pressure's pounding me into the swampy ground
I feel like there is no escape
So come around here with that sweet sweet neck
I'll string you up with sellotape

9th of May 1998
And I feel like I've been wronged by you
And why do I care so much
Cos I know that this is nothing new

Hmmm so I guess I shouldn't name names on here... But I was convinced I was in love with this guy for, well, I remember at the time I counted 30 months altogether... Ah the joys of being a teenager in love... Obviously there's a book load of other songs and history to it. I remember at the time, I hadn't told anyone I was gay so I used to refer to this guy in my diary as Lysida (each letter stood for something but that would give it away and I'm being discrete here...!)

A few years later, I was in a relationship and I had a similar feeling to above, so I re-wrote it with a slightly different melody and different lyrics... the new version is really sad though when I think back - it was called Painkiller... I should deffo record that actually!